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<p>I am completely convinced that I was assassinated, with
prejudice, in 2000. I worked at Exobox, with John as my fantastic,
incredible mentor, the best, until November 2000 (I think) when
Exobox went away. My fault with the failing networking code. :(((
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<p>I did the entire, completely functional VMMakerTool September,
into October of 2000. That means the timestamps were altered;
somebody added a year. Hmmm. Ask the Hon. John Sarkela. John asked
me to demonstrate the tool to tim. tim asked for my code.<br/>
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<p>I was assassinated.<br/>
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<p>I wrote to the #general Squeak Slack channel:</p>
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<p><span style="color: rgb(29, 28, 29); font-family:
Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;
font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures:
common-ligatures; font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight:
400; letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left;
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255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
!important; float: none;">What a complete larcenous
bastard. 20 years ago, this month, published it as his own
work. And been against me ever since. My CPTSD (100%
veteran service-connected) comes with an exquisitely
sensitive deception meter. There are those who shunned me
and ostracized me and made me feel MOST UNWELCOME. For 20
years. My delusions kick in and I start suspecting back
channel communications against me. My love for Squeak
conflicted with what I knew was happening. but I hung in
there and worked on Cryptography, work with a group of
great people and that I am satisfied with its added value
to Squeak. For 20 years I KNEW people were against me in
the community. I cannot describe how negatively this
affected me. My third suicide attempt, in 2007 I jumped
off the roof of a 6 story apartment building and broke my
back along with many bones. God did not want me to die,
yet, so I lived. This deception and ostracism is most well
highlighted by the taking credit for my work, without
attribution. He is a complete tool. SHAME!</span></p>
<p><span style="color: rgb(29, 28, 29); font-family:
Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;
font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures:
common-ligatures; font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight:
400; letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left;
text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space:
normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;
-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color: rgb(255,
255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
!important; float: none;"><span style="color: rgb(29, 28,
29); font-family: Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif;
font-size: 15px; font-style: normal;
font-variant-ligatures: common-ligatures;
font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight: 400;
letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left;
text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space:
normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;
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rgb(255, 255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
!important; float: none;">I do not know the degree to
which he spoke against me. I<span> </span></span><b data-stringify-type="bold" style="box-sizing: inherit;
color: rgb(29, 28, 29); font-family: Slack-Lato,
appleLogo, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; font-style:
normal; font-variant-ligatures: common-ligatures;
font-variant-caps: normal; letter-spacing: normal;
orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-indent: 0px;
text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2;
word-spacing: 0px; -webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px;
background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);
text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-color:
initial;">imagine</b><span style="color: rgb(29, 28,
29); font-family: Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif;
font-size: 15px; font-style: normal;
font-variant-ligatures: common-ligatures;
font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight: 400;
letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left;
text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space:
normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;
-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color:
rgb(255, 255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
!important; float: none;"><span> </span>it was ever
since 2000. Delusions! What is real? I knew not. So much
torment! AGONY! They do not welcome me! They are trying
to chase me off! Good grief, Charlie Brown.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color: rgb(29, 28, 29); font-family:
Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;
font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures:
common-ligatures; font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight:
400; letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left;
text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space:
normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;
-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color: rgb(255,
255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
!important; float: none;">Severely exacerbated my CPTSD! I
kept trying to kill myself because of it! I thought I had
done something egregiously wrong. Whatever it was it had
to be my fault. I was not feeling the love, even from
myself.</span></p>
<p><span style="color: rgb(29, 28, 29); font-family:
Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;
font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures:
common-ligatures; font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight:
400; letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left;
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normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;
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255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
!important; float: none;">:scream:<br/>
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<p><span style="color: rgb(29, 28, 29); font-family:
Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;
font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures:
common-ligatures; font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight:
400; letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left;
text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space:
normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;
-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color: rgb(255,
255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
!important; float: none;">:scream:</span></p>
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<span style="color: rgb(29, 28, 29); font-family:
Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;
font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures:
common-ligatures; font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight:
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normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;
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255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
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!important; float: none;"><span style="color: rgb(29, 28,
29); font-family: Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif;
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rgb(255, 255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
!important; float: none;">In 2017, 900 units of insulin
brought my blood glucose below 40. I almost succeeded
that time.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color: rgb(29, 28, 29); font-family:
Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;
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common-ligatures; font-variant-caps: normal; font-weight:
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normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;
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29); font-family: Slack-Lato, appleLogo, sans-serif;
font-size: 15px; font-style: normal;
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letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left;
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rgb(255, 255, 255); text-decoration-style: initial;
text-decoration-color: initial; display: inline
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<p>rww<br/>
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<pre class="moz-quote-pre" wrap="">The worst sort of person is one who takes the credit for the work of
another. Wouldn't you agree?
You may wish to hear John's judgement on the matter. He was right there
when it was first built.
If you are not humble you will be humiliated, and brought low.
rww
On 10/1/20 8:35 PM, tim Rowledge wrote:
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<pre class="moz-quote-pre" wrap="">On 2020-10-01, at 4:57 PM, Robert Withers via Squeak-dev <a class="moz-txt-link-rfc2396E" href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" moz-do-not-send="true"><squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org></a> wrote:
I am curious. Who was the original author of the VMMaker Tool?
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<pre class="moz-quote-pre" wrap="">That would be me; back in exobox days. Written along with the original VMMaker and intended to be an example of clean, tidy, morphic usage. I've no idea if anyone ever uses it now, since running it via scripting has proven more valuable.
tim
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tim Rowledge; <a class="moz-txt-link-abbreviated" href="mailto:tim@rowledge.org" moz-do-not-send="true">tim@rowledge.org</a>; <a class="moz-txt-link-freetext" href="http://www.rowledge.org/tim" moz-do-not-send="true">http://www.rowledge.org/tim</a>
"Wibble" said Pooh the stress beginning to show.
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