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    <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 3:33 AM, Robert Withers
      wrote:<br/>
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      <p>Alright, goddammit! Here is some more Truth, if you believe in
        my message. If you can handle it, it's Big. <br/>
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      <p>PROOF OF THE TRUTH OF THE PROPHESIES OF THE BIBLE!</p>
      <p>Hang on...</p>
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      <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 3:24 AM, Robert Withers
        wrote:<br/>
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        <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 3:24 AM, Robert Withers
          wrote:<br/>
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          <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 3:24 AM, Robert
            Withers wrote:<br/>
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            <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 3:23 AM, Robert
              Withers wrote:<br/>
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              <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 3:16 AM, Robert
                Withers wrote:<br/>
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                <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 3:07 AM, Robert
                  Withers wrote:<br/>
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                  <p>I haven't heard from sparky, recently. Has anyone?<br/>
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                  <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 3:03 AM,
                    Robert Withers wrote:<br/>
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                    <p>Gotta meditate to this entire run! It's deep.<br/>
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                    <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:50 AM,
                      Robert Withers via Squeak-dev wrote:<br/>
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                      <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:39 AM,
                        Robert Withers wrote:<br/>
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                        <p>Play a bit of these spicy beats! The music
                          helps me to express what is on the inside.<br/>
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                        <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:26 AM,
                          Robert Withers wrote:<br/>
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                          <p><i><span id="en-KJV-19685" class="text
                                Jer-30-17">For I will restore health
                                unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy
                                wounds, saith the <span style="font-variant: small-caps" class="small-caps">Lord</span>;
                                because they called thee an Outcast,
                                saying, This is Zion, whom no man
                                seeketh after.</span></i></p>
                          <p><i><span id="en-KJV-19685" class="text
                                Jer-30-17"><b>Jeremiah 30:17</b><br/>
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                          <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:22
                            AM, Robert Withers via Squeak-dev wrote:<br/>
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                            <p>Thank you for reaching out in this manner
                              on these issues. Though be ye not
                              concerned for my health, Ron, I am in a
                              good place. The sobbing really helps a
                              LOT! And I was brought to that tonight
                              after screaming! And discussing a couple
                              of my many suicide attempts. And realizing
                              the effect my not finding a home with
                              Squeak had affected me over 20 years. It
                              hurts! I sob. All is well; God is Good.
                              The Truth heals. All praise to the Most
                              High!</p>
                            <p>Kindly,<br/>
                              Rob<br/>
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                            <div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:16
                              AM, Ron Teitelbaum wrote:<br/>
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                                <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Rob,</div>
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                                <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">You have been
                                  in this place before.  Is there
                                  someone you can talk to for help?  Do
                                  you have a connection to someone that
                                  is working with you on your issues? 
                                  Would you consider calling them now?</div>
                                <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
                                </div>
                                <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I've seen you
                                  here before.  I've seen you doing much
                                  better.  You should be good to
                                  yourself and get help now to move into
                                  calmer water and get on a more even
                                  keel.  A better future includes
                                  protecting yourself, being nice to
                                  yourself, and making sure you get help
                                  when you need it.</div>
                                <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
                                </div>
                                <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Don't wait
                                  until later.  I really recommend you
                                  do it now.</div>
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                                <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Ron</div>
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                                <div dir="ltr" class="gmail_attr">On
                                  Fri, Oct 2, 2020 at 1:50 AM Robert
                                  Withers <<a href="mailto:robert.withers@pm.me" moz-do-not-send="true">robert.withers@pm.me</a>>
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                                    <h2><small>"And would not encourage
                                        the feeding of the indigent!"</small></h2>
                                    <div>On 10/2/20 12:21 AM, Robert
                                      Withers wrote:<br/>
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                                    <blockquote type="cite"> The
                                      Hellfire and its occupants, not my
                                      problem. I pay no attention. Burn.<br/>
                                      <p>I "Will be in a life of bliss,
                                        In a Garden on high. The Fruits
                                        whereof"...</p>
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                                      <h1 align="center"><small>Al
                                          Haqqah (69)</small></h1>
                                      <blockquote>
                                        <blockquote>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>[The
                                              Sure Reality!</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>What
                                              is the Sure Reality?</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>And
                                              what will make thee
                                              realise what the Sure
                                              Reality is?</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>The
                                              Thamud and the 'Ad People
                                              (branded) as false the
                                              Stunning Calamity!</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>But
                                              the Thamud,- they were
                                              destroyed by a terrible
                                              Storm of thunder and
                                              lightning!</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>And
                                              the 'Ad, they were
                                              destroyed by a furious
                                              Wind, exceedingly violent;</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>He
                                              made it rage against them
                                              seven nights and eight
                                              days in succession: so
                                              that thou couldst see the
                                              (whole) people lying
                                              prostrate in its (path),
                                              as they had been roots of
                                              hollow palm-trees tumbled
                                              down!</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>Then
                                              seest thou any of them
                                              left surviving?</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>And
                                              Pharaoh, and those before
                                              him, and the Cities
                                              Overthrown, committed
                                              habitual Sin.</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>And
                                              disobeyed (each) the
                                              messenger of their Lord;
                                              so He punished them with
                                              an abundant Penalty.</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>We,
                                              when the water (of Noah's
                                              Flood) overflowed beyond
                                              its limits, carried you
                                              (mankind), in the floating
                                              (Ark),</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>That
                                              We might make it a Message
                                              unto you, and that ears
                                              (that should hear the tale
                                              and) retain its memory
                                              should bear its (lessons)
                                              in remembrance.</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>Then,
                                              when one blast is sounded
                                              on the Trumpet,</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>And
                                              the earth is moved, and
                                              its mountains, and they
                                              are crushed to powder at
                                              one stroke,-</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>On
                                              that Day shall the (Great)
                                              Event come to pass.</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>And
                                              the sky will be rent
                                              asunder, for it will that
                                              Day be flimsy,</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>And
                                              the angels will be on its
                                              sides, and eight will,
                                              that Day, bear the Throne
                                              of thy Lord above them.</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>That
                                              Day shall ye be brought to
                                              Judgment: not an act of
                                              yours that ye hide will be
                                              hidden.</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>Then
                                              he that will be given his
                                              Record in his right hand
                                              will say: "Ah here! Read
                                              ye my Record!</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>"I
                                              did really understand that
                                              my Account would (One Day)
                                              reach me!"</small></h2>
                                          <h2 align="center"><small>And
                                              he will be in a life of
                                              Bliss,</small></h2>
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                                                <h2><small>In a Garden
                                                    on high,</small></h2>
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                                                <h2><small>The Fruits
                                                    whereof (will hang
                                                    in bunches) low and
                                                    near.</small></h2>
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                                            <h2><small>"Eat ye and drink
                                                ye, with full
                                                satisfaction; because of
                                                the (good) that ye sent
                                                before you, in the days
                                                that are gone!"</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>And he that will
                                                be given his Record in
                                                his left hand, will say:
                                                "Ah! Would that my
                                                Record had not been
                                                given to me!</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"And that I had
                                                never realised how my
                                                account (stood)!</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"Ah! Would that
                                                (Death) had made an end
                                                of me!</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"Of no profit to
                                                me has been my wealth!</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"My power has
                                                perished from me!"...</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>(The stern
                                                command will say):
                                                "Seize ye him, and bind
                                                ye him,</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"And burn ye him
                                                in the Blazing Fire.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"Further, make
                                                him march in a chain,
                                                whereof the length is
                                                seventy cubits!</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"This was he that
                                                would not believe in
                                                Allah Most High.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"And would not
                                                encourage the feeding of
                                                the indigent!</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"So no friend
                                                hath he here this Day.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"Nor hath he any
                                                food except the
                                                corruption from the
                                                washing of wounds,</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>"Which none do
                                                eat but those in sin."</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>So I do call to
                                                witness what ye see,</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>And what ye see
                                                not,</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>That this is
                                                verily the word of an
                                                honoured messenger;</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>It is not the
                                                word of a poet: little
                                                it is ye believe!</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>Nor is it the
                                                word of a soothsayer:
                                                little admonition it is
                                                ye receive.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>(This is) a
                                                Message sent down from
                                                the Lord of the Worlds.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>And if the
                                                messenger were to invent
                                                any sayings in Our name,</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>We should
                                                certainly seize him by
                                                his right hand,</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>And We should
                                                certainly then cut off
                                                the artery of his heart:</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>Nor could any of
                                                you withhold him (from
                                                Our wrath).</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>But verily this
                                                is a Message for the
                                                Allah-fearing.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>And We certainly
                                                know that there are
                                                amongst you those that
                                                reject (it).</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>But truly
                                                (Revelation) is a cause
                                                of sorrow for the
                                                Unbelievers.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>But verily it is
                                                Truth of assured
                                                certainty.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>So glorify the
                                                name of thy Lord Most
                                                High.</small></h2>
                                            <h2><small>] - Quran 69:1-52<br/>
                                              </small></h2>
                                          </div>
                                        </blockquote>
                                      </blockquote>
                                      <p>---<br/>
                                      </p>
                                      <p>Slosher<br/>
                                        Oriental, NC<br/>
                                      </p>
                                      <blockquote type="cite">
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                                          <p> </p>
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                                          <br/>
                                          <div>On 10/1/20 11:36 PM, Ron
                                            Teitelbaum wrote:<br/>
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                                            <div dir="ltr">
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Hi
                                                Rob,</div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I'm
                                                so sorry you felt that
                                                way.  I know you have
                                                had major issues, you
                                                have said the same
                                                yourself.  I'm always
                                                happy to see you come
                                                back even after long
                                                absences.  You are a
                                                brilliant coder and it
                                                has been my distinct
                                                pleasure to work with
                                                you on Cryptography! 
                                                Thank you for all you
                                                have done and indeed you
                                                are responsible for
                                                adding significant value
                                                to Squeak and the
                                                community.  </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">We
                                                all work on code and
                                                it's easy to work your
                                                ass off on something to
                                                make it work and forget
                                                where it originated.  We
                                                all contribute in large
                                                and small ways to
                                                everything.  If you
                                                started VMMaker thank
                                                you!  It is definitely
                                                something a lot of us
                                                use.  I remember
                                                learning all about it a
                                                long long time ago
                                                before I realized that
                                                while I could understand
                                                it and I could use it,
                                                the people that work on
                                                the VM are a level
                                                higher than me.  I just
                                                make apps!</div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I
                                                remember getting in an
                                                argument with Andreas
                                                about adding methods to
                                                collection.  "WE
                                                DON"T NEED more methods
                                                in Collection we need to
                                                remove most of them and
                                                make it easier!" I
                                                argued with him about
                                                the value over and over
                                                but he insisted that
                                                they just didn't add
                                                enough value.  I could
                                                have been put off.  I
                                                could have assumed that
                                                Andreas didn't like me
                                                but I would have been
                                                very wrong!  I was
                                                really honored to get
                                                the chance to work with
                                                him and we became great
                                                friends.  Of course I
                                                added my methods to the
                                                code we were working on
                                                together and was so
                                                thrilled when he used my
                                                methods for his own
                                                code.</div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default">I
                                                don't know what happened
                                                with VMMaker but again
                                                thank you for
                                                your participation
                                                in it.. I wanted to take
                                                a minute to thank you
                                                for your work and to let
                                                you know it is my honor
                                                to work with you too!  I
                                                hope that you can come
                                                to terms with your past
                                                and that you get the
                                                help you need for your
                                                CPTSD.  </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default">Everything
                                                is possible, the past is
                                                gone, but the future is
                                                still yours to shape.  I
                                                wish the past was set in
                                                stone but even that
                                                moves and slips.  I was
                                                talking to my wife about
                                                a party we attended:
                                                "Remember in 2000 we
                                                were at the party and
                                                counted down the new
                                                year and someone hit the
                                                breaker and killed the
                                                lights!  We were all
                                                talking about what would
                                                happen in the year 2000,
                                                would everything
                                                break!"  Great story
                                                except that I hadn't met
                                                my wife yet!  The past
                                                is only what we remember
                                                but the future is
                                                something we have
                                                control over.  Peace,
                                                calm, happyness, they
                                                are all hard to come by
                                                but they are possible. 
                                                I wish you success in
                                                finding what makes your
                                                future better.</div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default">I'm
                                                sorry about the bad
                                                things that have
                                                happened to you in
                                                the past.  As far as I'm
                                                concerned, you are
                                                welcomed here!  </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default">All
                                                the best,</div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default">Ron
                                                Teitelbaum </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                              <div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
                                              </div>
                                            </div>
                                            <br/>
                                            <div class="gmail_quote">
                                              <div dir="ltr" class="gmail_attr">On
                                                Thu, Oct 1, 2020 at
                                                10:38 PM Robert Withers
                                                via Squeak-dev <<a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true">squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org</a>>
                                                wrote:<br/>
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                                                  <p>:sob::sob::sob:<br/>
                                                  </p>
                                                  <div>On 10/1/20 10:34
                                                    PM, Robert Withers
                                                    wrote:<br/>
                                                  </div>
                                                  <blockquote type="cite">
                                                    <p>I wrote to the
                                                      #general Squeak
                                                      Slack channel:</p>
                                                    <blockquote>
                                                      <p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">What
                                                          a complete
                                                          larcenous
                                                          bastard. 20
                                                          years ago,
                                                          this month,
                                                          published it
                                                          as his own
                                                          work. And been
                                                          against me
                                                          ever since. My
                                                          CPTSD (100%
                                                          veteran
                                                          service-connected)
                                                          comes with an
                                                          exquisitely
                                                          sensitive
                                                          deception
                                                          meter. There
                                                          are those who
                                                          shunned me and
                                                          ostracized me
                                                          and made me
                                                          feel MOST
                                                          UNWELCOME.
                                                          For  20 years.
                                                          My delusions
                                                          kick in and I
                                                          start
                                                          suspecting
                                                          back channel
                                                          communications
                                                          against me. My
                                                          love for
                                                          Squeak
                                                          conflicted
                                                          with what I
                                                          knew was
                                                          happening. but
                                                          I hung in
                                                          there and
                                                          worked on
                                                          Cryptography,
                                                          work with a
                                                          group of great
                                                          people and
                                                          that I am
                                                          satisfied with
                                                          its added
                                                          value to
                                                          Squeak. For 20
                                                          years I KNEW
                                                          people were
                                                          against me in
                                                          the community.
                                                          I cannot
                                                          describe how
                                                          negatively
                                                          this affected
                                                          me. My third
                                                          suicide
                                                          attempt, in
                                                          2007 I jumped
                                                          off the roof
                                                          of a 6 story
                                                          apartment
                                                          building and
                                                          broke my back
                                                          along with
                                                          many bones.
                                                          God did not
                                                          want me to
                                                          die, yet, so I
                                                          lived. This
                                                          deception and
                                                          ostracism is
                                                          most well
                                                          highlighted by
                                                          the taking
                                                          credit for my
                                                          work, without
                                                          attribution.
                                                          He is a
                                                          complete tool.
                                                          SHAME!</span></p>
                                                      <p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">I
                                                          do not know
                                                          the degree to
                                                          which he spoke
                                                          against me. I<span> </span></span><b style="box-sizing:inherit;color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial">imagine</b><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span> </span>it
                                                          was ever since
                                                          2000.
                                                          Delusions!
                                                          What is real?
                                                          I knew not. So
                                                          much torment!
                                                          AGONY! They do
                                                          not welcome
                                                          me! They are
                                                          trying to
                                                          chase me off!
                                                          Good grief,
                                                          Charlie Brown.</span></span></p>
                                                      <p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">Severely
                                                          exacerbated my
                                                          CPTSD! I kept
                                                          trying to kill
                                                          myself because
                                                          of it! I
                                                          thought I had
                                                          done something
                                                          egregiously
                                                          wrong.
                                                          Whatever it
                                                          was it had to
                                                          be my fault. I
                                                          was not
                                                          feeling the
                                                          love, even
                                                          from myself.</span></p>
                                                      <p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
                                                        </span></p>
                                                      <p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:</span></p>
                                                      <p><br/>
                                                        <span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">In
                                                          2017, 900
                                                          units of
                                                          insulin
                                                          brought my
                                                          blood glucose
                                                          below 40. I
                                                          almost
                                                          succeeded that
                                                          time.</span></span></p>
                                                      <p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
                                                          </span></span></p>
                                                    </blockquote>
                                                    <p>rww<br/>
                                                    </p>
                                                    <div>On 10/1/20 8:55
                                                      PM, Robert Withers
                                                      wrote:<br/>
                                                    </div>
                                                    <blockquote type="cite">
                                                      <pre>The worst sort of person is one who takes the credit for the work of
another. Wouldn't you agree?

You may wish to hear John's judgement on the matter. He was right there
when it was first built.

If you are not humble you will be humiliated, and brought low.

rww

On 10/1/20 8:35 PM, tim Rowledge wrote:
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                                                      <blockquote type="cite">
                                                        <blockquote type="cite">
                                                          <pre>On 2020-10-01, at 4:57 PM, Robert Withers via Squeak-dev <a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true"><squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org></a> wrote:

I am curious. Who was the original author of the VMMaker Tool?
</pre>
                                                        </blockquote>
                                                        <pre>That would be me; back in exobox days. Written along with the original VMMaker and intended to be an example of clean, tidy, morphic usage. I've no idea if anyone ever uses it now, since running it via scripting has proven more valuable.


tim
--
tim Rowledge; <a href="mailto:tim@rowledge.org" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true">tim@rowledge.org</a>; <a href="http://www.rowledge.org/tim" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true">http://www.rowledge.org/tim</a>
"Wibble" said Pooh the stress beginning to show.



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        K, r<br/>
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      K, r<br/>
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