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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I'm so
sorry you felt that way. I know you have had major
issues, you have said the same yourself. I'm always
happy to see you come back even after long absences.
You are a brilliant coder and it has been my distinct
pleasure to work with you on Cryptography! Thank you
for all you have done and indeed you are responsible for
adding significant value to Squeak and the community. </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">We all
work on code and it's easy to work your ass off on
something to make it work and forget where it
originated. We all contribute in large and small ways
to everything. If you started VMMaker thank you! It is
definitely something a lot of us use. I remember
learning all about it a long long time ago before I
realized that while I could understand it and I could
use it, the people that work on the VM are a level
higher than me. I just make apps!</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I
remember getting in an argument with Andreas about
adding methods to collection. "WE DON"T NEED more
methods in Collection we need to remove most of them and
make it easier!" I argued with him about the value over
and over but he insisted that they just didn't add
enough value. I could have been put off. I could have
assumed that Andreas didn't like me but I would have
been very wrong! I was really honored to get the chance
to work with him and we became great friends. Of course
I added my methods to the code we were working on
together and was so thrilled when he used my methods for
his own code.</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">I don't know what
happened with VMMaker but again thank you for
your participation in it.. I wanted to take a minute to
thank you for your work and to let you know it is my
honor to work with you too! I hope that you can come to
terms with your past and that you get the help you need
for your CPTSD. </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">Everything is
possible, the past is gone, but the future is still
yours to shape. I wish the past was set in stone but
even that moves and slips. I was talking to my wife
about a party we attended: "Remember in 2000 we were at
the party and counted down the new year and someone hit
the breaker and killed the lights! We were all talking
about what would happen in the year 2000, would
everything break!" Great story except that I hadn't met
my wife yet! The past is only what we remember but the
future is something we have control over. Peace, calm,
happyness, they are all hard to come by but they are
possible. I wish you success in finding what makes your
future better.</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">I'm sorry about the
bad things that have happened to you in the past. As
far as I'm concerned, you are welcomed here! </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">All the best,</div>
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Beautifully said, Ron. And Rob, I hope you find peace with
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Thanks, Eliot! I had to rip my heart completely apart, laid bare.
So the scabs would heal right. I kept picking and picking and
picking. They itched like HELL!<br/>
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10:38 PM Robert Withers via Squeak-dev <<a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" moz-do-not-send="true">squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org</a>>
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<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">What
a complete larcenous bastard. 20 years ago,
this month, published it as his own work.
And been against me ever since. My CPTSD
(100% veteran service-connected) comes with
an exquisitely sensitive deception meter.
There are those who shunned me and
ostracized me and made me feel MOST
UNWELCOME. For 20 years. My delusions kick
in and I start suspecting back channel
communications against me. My love for
Squeak conflicted with what I knew was
happening. but I hung in there and worked on
Cryptography, work with a group of great
people and that I am satisfied with its
added value to Squeak. For 20 years I KNEW
people were against me in the community. I
cannot describe how negatively this affected
me. My third suicide attempt, in 2007 I
jumped off the roof of a 6 story apartment
building and broke my back along with many
bones. God did not want me to die, yet, so I
lived. This deception and ostracism is most
well highlighted by the taking credit for my
work, without attribution. He is a complete
tool. SHAME!</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">I
do not know the degree to which he spoke
against me. I<span> </span></span><b style="box-sizing:inherit;color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial">imagine</b><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span> </span>it
was ever since 2000. Delusions! What is
real? I knew not. So much torment! AGONY!
They do not welcome me! They are trying to
chase me off! Good grief, Charlie Brown.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">Severely
exacerbated my CPTSD! I kept trying to kill
myself because of it! I thought I had done
something egregiously wrong. Whatever it was
it had to be my fault. I was not feeling the
love, even from myself.</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
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<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:</span></p>
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<span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">In
2017, 900 units of insulin brought my
blood glucose below 40. I almost succeeded
that time.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
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another. Wouldn't you agree?
You may wish to hear John's judgement on the matter. He was right there
when it was first built.
If you are not humble you will be humiliated, and brought low.
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I am curious. Who was the original author of the VMMaker Tool?
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<pre>That would be me; back in exobox days. Written along with the original VMMaker and intended to be an example of clean, tidy, morphic usage. I've no idea if anyone ever uses it now, since running it via scripting has proven more valuable.
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"Wibble" said Pooh the stress beginning to show.
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