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<p>Play a bit of these spicy beats! The music helps me to express
what is on the inside.<br/>
</p>
<p><a class="moz-txt-link-freetext" href="https://youtu.be/3q8nGnls1Ow?t=2711">https://youtu.be/3q8nGnls1Ow?t=2711</a><br/>
</p>
<div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:26 AM, Robert Withers
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite" cite="mid:68481afd-2d10-e85b-29be-f2ac9546388e@pm.me">
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<p><i><span id="en-KJV-19685" class="text Jer-30-17">For I will
restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy
wounds, saith the <span style="font-variant: small-caps" class="small-caps">Lord</span>; because they called thee
an Outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom no man seeketh after.</span></i></p>
<p><i><span id="en-KJV-19685" class="text Jer-30-17"><b>Jeremiah
30:17</b><br/>
</span></i></p>
<div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:22 AM, Robert Withers
via Squeak-dev wrote:<br/>
</div>
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<meta http-equiv="content-type" content="text/html;
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<p>Thank you for reaching out in this manner on these issues.
Though be ye not concerned for my health, Ron, I am in a good
place. The sobbing really helps a LOT! And I was brought to
that tonight after screaming! And discussing a couple of my
many suicide attempts. And realizing the effect my not finding
a home with Squeak had affected me over 20 years. It hurts! I
sob. All is well; God is Good. The Truth heals. All praise to
the Most High!</p>
<p>Kindly,<br/>
Rob<br/>
</p>
<div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:16 AM, Ron Teitelbaum
wrote:<br/>
</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Rob,</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">You have
been in this place before. Is there someone you can talk
to for help? Do you have a connection to someone that is
working with you on your issues? Would you consider
calling them now?</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I've seen
you here before. I've seen you doing much better. You
should be good to yourself and get help now to move into
calmer water and get on a more even keel. A better future
includes protecting yourself, being nice to yourself, and
making sure you get help when you need it.</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Don't
wait until later. I really recommend you do it now.</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Ron</div>
</div>
<br/>
<div class="gmail_quote">
<div dir="ltr" class="gmail_attr">On Fri, Oct 2, 2020 at
1:50 AM Robert Withers <<a href="mailto:robert.withers@pm.me" moz-do-not-send="true">robert.withers@pm.me</a>>
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote class="gmail_quote" style="margin:0px 0px 0px
0.8ex;border-left:1px solid
rgb(204,204,204);padding-left:1ex">
<div>
<h2><small>"And would not encourage the feeding of the
indigent!"</small></h2>
<div>On 10/2/20 12:21 AM, Robert Withers wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite"> The Hellfire and its occupants,
not my problem. I pay no attention. Burn.<br/>
<p>I "Will be in a life of bliss, In a Garden on high.
The Fruits whereof"...</p>
<hr width="100%" size="2"/>
<h1 align="center"><small>Al Haqqah (69)</small></h1>
<blockquote>
<blockquote>
<h2 align="center"><small>[The Sure Reality!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>What is the Sure
Reality?</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And what will make thee
realise what the Sure Reality is?</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>The Thamud and the 'Ad
People (branded) as false the Stunning
Calamity!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>But the Thamud,- they
were destroyed by a terrible Storm of thunder
and lightning!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And the 'Ad, they were
destroyed by a furious Wind, exceedingly
violent;</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>He made it rage against
them seven nights and eight days in
succession: so that thou couldst see the
(whole) people lying prostrate in its (path),
as they had been roots of hollow palm-trees
tumbled down!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>Then seest thou any of
them left surviving?</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And Pharaoh, and those
before him, and the Cities Overthrown,
committed habitual Sin.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And disobeyed (each) the
messenger of their Lord; so He punished them
with an abundant Penalty.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>We, when the water (of
Noah's Flood) overflowed beyond its limits,
carried you (mankind), in the floating (Ark),</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>That We might make it a
Message unto you, and that ears (that should
hear the tale and) retain its memory should
bear its (lessons) in remembrance.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>Then, when one blast is
sounded on the Trumpet,</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And the earth is moved,
and its mountains, and they are crushed to
powder at one stroke,-</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>On that Day shall the
(Great) Event come to pass.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And the sky will be rent
asunder, for it will that Day be flimsy,</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And the angels will be
on its sides, and eight will, that Day, bear
the Throne of thy Lord above them.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>That Day shall ye be
brought to Judgment: not an act of yours that
ye hide will be hidden.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>Then he that will be
given his Record in his right hand will say:
"Ah here! Read ye my Record!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>"I did really understand
that my Account would (One Day) reach me!"</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And he will be in a life
of Bliss,</small></h2>
<div name="verse:69:22" align="center">
<div>
<div id="gmail-m_2205346858104581037trans113644">
<h2><small>In a Garden on high,</small></h2>
</div>
</div>
</div>
<div name="verse:69:23" align="center">
<div>
<div id="gmail-m_2205346858104581037trans113645">
<h2><small>The Fruits whereof (will hang in
bunches) low and near.</small></h2>
</div>
</div>
</div>
<div id="gmail-m_2205346858104581037trans113646" align="center">
<h2><small>"Eat ye and drink ye, with full
satisfaction; because of the (good) that ye
sent before you, in the days that are gone!"</small></h2>
<h2><small>And he that will be given his Record
in his left hand, will say: "Ah! Would that
my Record had not been given to me!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"And that I had never realised how my
account (stood)!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Ah! Would that (Death) had made an
end of me!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Of no profit to me has been my
wealth!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"My power has perished from me!"...</small></h2>
<h2><small>(The stern command will say): "Seize
ye him, and bind ye him,</small></h2>
<h2><small>"And burn ye him in the Blazing Fire.</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Further, make him march in a chain,
whereof the length is seventy cubits!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"This was he that would not believe
in Allah Most High.</small></h2>
<h2><small>"And would not encourage the feeding
of the indigent!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"So no friend hath he here this Day.</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Nor hath he any food except the
corruption from the washing of wounds,</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Which none do eat but those in sin."</small></h2>
<h2><small>So I do call to witness what ye see,</small></h2>
<h2><small>And what ye see not,</small></h2>
<h2><small>That this is verily the word of an
honoured messenger;</small></h2>
<h2><small>It is not the word of a poet: little
it is ye believe!</small></h2>
<h2><small>Nor is it the word of a soothsayer:
little admonition it is ye receive.</small></h2>
<h2><small>(This is) a Message sent down from
the Lord of the Worlds.</small></h2>
<h2><small>And if the messenger were to invent
any sayings in Our name,</small></h2>
<h2><small>We should certainly seize him by his
right hand,</small></h2>
<h2><small>And We should certainly then cut off
the artery of his heart:</small></h2>
<h2><small>Nor could any of you withhold him
(from Our wrath).</small></h2>
<h2><small>But verily this is a Message for the
Allah-fearing.</small></h2>
<h2><small>And We certainly know that there are
amongst you those that reject (it).</small></h2>
<h2><small>But truly (Revelation) is a cause of
sorrow for the Unbelievers.</small></h2>
<h2><small>But verily it is Truth of assured
certainty.</small></h2>
<h2><small>So glorify the name of thy Lord Most
High.</small></h2>
<h2><small>] - Quran 69:1-52<br/>
</small></h2>
</div>
</blockquote>
</blockquote>
<p>---<br/>
</p>
<p>Slosher<br/>
Oriental, NC<br/>
</p>
<blockquote type="cite">
<blockquote type="cite">
<p> </p>
<p><img src="cid:part2.7BD0980A.C49D42DA@pm.me" alt="" class="" width="600" height="402"/></p>
<br/>
<div>On 10/1/20 11:36 PM, Ron Teitelbaum wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite">
<div dir="ltr">
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Hi Rob,</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I'm so sorry you
felt that way. I know you have had major
issues, you have said the same yourself.
I'm always happy to see you come back even
after long absences. You are a
brilliant coder and it has been my distinct
pleasure to work with you on Cryptography!
Thank you for all you have done and indeed
you are responsible for adding significant
value to Squeak and the community. </div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">We all work on code
and it's easy to work your ass off on
something to make it work and forget where
it originated. We all contribute in large
and small ways to everything. If you
started VMMaker thank you! It is definitely
something a lot of us use. I remember
learning all about it a long long time ago
before I realized that while I could
understand it and I could use it, the people
that work on the VM are a level higher than
me. I just make apps!</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I remember getting
in an argument with Andreas about adding
methods to collection. "WE DON"T NEED more
methods in Collection we need to remove most
of them and make it easier!" I argued with
him about the value over and over but he
insisted that they just didn't add enough
value. I could have been put off. I could
have assumed that Andreas didn't like me but
I would have been very wrong! I was really
honored to get the chance to work with him
and we became great friends. Of course I
added my methods to the code we were working
on together and was so thrilled when he used
my methods for his own code.</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">I don't know what
happened with VMMaker but again thank you
for your participation in it.. I wanted to
take a minute to thank you for your work and
to let you know it is my honor to work with
you too! I hope that you can come to terms
with your past and that you get the help you
need for your CPTSD. </div>
<div class="gmail_default"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">Everything is
possible, the past is gone, but the future
is still yours to shape. I wish the past
was set in stone but even that moves and
slips. I was talking to my wife about a
party we attended: "Remember in 2000 we were
at the party and counted down the new year
and someone hit the breaker and killed the
lights! We were all talking about what
would happen in the year 2000, would
everything break!" Great story except that
I hadn't met my wife yet! The past is only
what we remember but the future is something
we have control over. Peace, calm,
happyness, they are all hard to come by but
they are possible. I wish you success in
finding what makes your future better.</div>
<div class="gmail_default"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">I'm sorry about the
bad things that have happened to you in
the past. As far as I'm concerned, you are
welcomed here! </div>
<div class="gmail_default"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">All the best,</div>
<div class="gmail_default"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">Ron Teitelbaum </div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
</div>
<br/>
<div class="gmail_quote">
<div dir="ltr" class="gmail_attr">On Thu, Oct
1, 2020 at 10:38 PM Robert Withers via
Squeak-dev <<a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true">squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org</a>>
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote class="gmail_quote" style="margin:0px 0px 0px
0.8ex;border-left:1px solid
rgb(204,204,204);padding-left:1ex">
<div>
<p>:sob::sob::sob:<br/>
</p>
<div>On 10/1/20 10:34 PM, Robert Withers
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite">
<p>I wrote to the #general Squeak Slack
channel:</p>
<blockquote>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">What
a complete larcenous bastard. 20
years ago, this month, published
it as his own work. And been
against me ever since. My CPTSD
(100% veteran service-connected)
comes with an exquisitely
sensitive deception meter. There
are those who shunned me and
ostracized me and made me feel
MOST UNWELCOME. For 20 years. My
delusions kick in and I start
suspecting back channel
communications against me. My love
for Squeak conflicted with what I
knew was happening. but I hung in
there and worked on Cryptography,
work with a group of great people
and that I am satisfied with its
added value to Squeak. For 20
years I KNEW people were against
me in the community. I cannot
describe how negatively this
affected me. My third suicide
attempt, in 2007 I jumped off the
roof of a 6 story apartment
building and broke my back along
with many bones. God did not want
me to die, yet, so I lived. This
deception and ostracism is most
well highlighted by the taking
credit for my work, without
attribution. He is a complete
tool. SHAME!</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">I
do not know the degree to which
he spoke against me. I<span> </span></span><b style="box-sizing:inherit;color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial">imagine</b><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span> </span>it
was ever since 2000. Delusions!
What is real? I knew not. So
much torment! AGONY! They do not
welcome me! They are trying to
chase me off! Good grief,
Charlie Brown.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">Severely
exacerbated my CPTSD! I kept
trying to kill myself because of
it! I thought I had done something
egregiously wrong. Whatever it was
it had to be my fault. I was not
feeling the love, even from
myself.</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:</span></p>
<p><br/>
<span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">In
2017, 900 units of insulin
brought my blood glucose below
40. I almost succeeded that
time.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
</span></span></p>
</blockquote>
<p>rww<br/>
</p>
<div>On 10/1/20 8:55 PM, Robert Withers
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite">
<pre>The worst sort of person is one who takes the credit for the work of
another. Wouldn't you agree?
You may wish to hear John's judgement on the matter. He was right there
when it was first built.
If you are not humble you will be humiliated, and brought low.
rww
On 10/1/20 8:35 PM, tim Rowledge wrote:
</pre>
<blockquote type="cite">
<blockquote type="cite">
<pre>On 2020-10-01, at 4:57 PM, Robert Withers via Squeak-dev <a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true"><squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org></a> wrote:
I am curious. Who was the original author of the VMMaker Tool?
</pre>
</blockquote>
<pre>That would be me; back in exobox days. Written along with the original VMMaker and intended to be an example of clean, tidy, morphic usage. I've no idea if anyone ever uses it now, since running it via scripting has proven more valuable.
tim
--
tim Rowledge; <a href="mailto:tim@rowledge.org" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true">tim@rowledge.org</a>; <a href="http://www.rowledge.org/tim" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true">http://www.rowledge.org/tim</a>
"Wibble" said Pooh the stress beginning to show.
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