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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I'm so
sorry you felt that way. I know you have had major
issues, you have said the same yourself. I'm always happy
to see you come back even after long absences. You are a
brilliant coder and it has been my distinct pleasure to
work with you on Cryptography! Thank you for all you have
done and indeed you are responsible for adding significant
value to Squeak and the community. </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">We all
work on code and it's easy to work your ass off on
something to make it work and forget where it originated.
We all contribute in large and small ways to everything.
If you started VMMaker thank you! It is definitely
something a lot of us use. I remember learning all about
it a long long time ago before I realized that while I
could understand it and I could use it, the people that
work on the VM are a level higher than me. I just make
apps!</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I
remember getting in an argument with Andreas about adding
methods to collection. "WE DON"T NEED more methods in
Collection we need to remove most of them and make it
easier!" I argued with him about the value over and over
but he insisted that they just didn't add enough value. I
could have been put off. I could have assumed that
Andreas didn't like me but I would have been very wrong!
I was really honored to get the chance to work with him
and we became great friends. Of course I added my methods
to the code we were working on together and was so
thrilled when he used my methods for his own code.</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">I don't know what
happened with VMMaker but again thank you for
your participation in it.. I wanted to take a minute to
thank you for your work and to let you know it is my honor
to work with you too! I hope that you can come to terms
with your past and that you get the help you need for your
CPTSD. </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">Everything is possible,
the past is gone, but the future is still yours to shape.
I wish the past was set in stone but even that moves and
slips. I was talking to my wife about a party we
attended: "Remember in 2000 we were at the party and
counted down the new year and someone hit the breaker and
killed the lights! We were all talking about what would
happen in the year 2000, would everything break!" Great
story except that I hadn't met my wife yet! The past is
only what we remember but the future is something we have
control over. Peace, calm, happyness, they are all hard
to come by but they are possible. I wish you success in
finding what makes your future better.</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">I'm sorry about the bad
things that have happened to you in the past. As far as
I'm concerned, you are welcomed here! </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">All the best,</div>
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Beautifully said, Ron. And Rob, I hope you find peace with this.
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Thanks, Eliot! I had to rip my heart completely apart, laid bare. So
the scabs would heal right. I kept picking and picking and picking.
They itched like HELL!<br/>
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10:38 PM Robert Withers via Squeak-dev <<a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" moz-do-not-send="true">squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org</a>>
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<div>On 10/1/20 10:34 PM, Robert Withers wrote:<br/>
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<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">What
a complete larcenous bastard. 20 years ago,
this month, published it as his own work. And
been against me ever since. My CPTSD (100%
veteran service-connected) comes with an
exquisitely sensitive deception meter. There
are those who shunned me and ostracized me and
made me feel MOST UNWELCOME. For 20 years. My
delusions kick in and I start suspecting back
channel communications against me. My love for
Squeak conflicted with what I knew was
happening. but I hung in there and worked on
Cryptography, work with a group of great
people and that I am satisfied with its added
value to Squeak. For 20 years I KNEW people
were against me in the community. I cannot
describe how negatively this affected me. My
third suicide attempt, in 2007 I jumped off
the roof of a 6 story apartment building and
broke my back along with many bones. God did
not want me to die, yet, so I lived. This
deception and ostracism is most well
highlighted by the taking credit for my work,
without attribution. He is a complete tool.
SHAME!</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">I
do not know the degree to which he spoke
against me. I<span> </span></span><b style="box-sizing:inherit;color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial">imagine</b><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span> </span>it
was ever since 2000. Delusions! What is
real? I knew not. So much torment! AGONY!
They do not welcome me! They are trying to
chase me off! Good grief, Charlie Brown.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">Severely
exacerbated my CPTSD! I kept trying to kill
myself because of it! I thought I had done
something egregiously wrong. Whatever it was
it had to be my fault. I was not feeling the
love, even from myself.</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
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<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:</span></p>
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<span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">In
2017, 900 units of insulin brought my blood
glucose below 40. I almost succeeded that
time.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
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<div>On 10/1/20 8:55 PM, Robert Withers wrote:<br/>
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<pre>The worst sort of person is one who takes the credit for the work of
another. Wouldn't you agree?
You may wish to hear John's judgement on the matter. He was right there
when it was first built.
If you are not humble you will be humiliated, and brought low.
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I am curious. Who was the original author of the VMMaker Tool?
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<pre>That would be me; back in exobox days. Written along with the original VMMaker and intended to be an example of clean, tidy, morphic usage. I've no idea if anyone ever uses it now, since running it via scripting has proven more valuable.
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"Wibble" said Pooh the stress beginning to show.
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