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<p>Gotta meditate to this entire run! It's deep.<br/>
<br/>
<a class="moz-txt-link-freetext" href="https://soundcloud.com/yusuke-mizushima/acid-jazz-mix-jazzual-suspects">https://soundcloud.com/yusuke-mizushima/acid-jazz-mix-jazzual-suspects</a><br/>
</p>
<div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:50 AM, Robert Withers via
Squeak-dev wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite" cite="mid:dcf7c13c-45d5-2077-a781-5f9e9b8546f6@pm.me">
<meta http-equiv="content-type" content="text/html; charset=UTF-8"/>
<p><a class="moz-txt-link-freetext" href="https://soundcloud.com/robert_withers/rasta" moz-do-not-send="true">https://soundcloud.com/robert_withers/rasta</a></p>
<p><a class="moz-txt-link-freetext" href="https://soundcloud.com/robert_withers/mando" moz-do-not-send="true">https://soundcloud.com/robert_withers/mando</a><br/>
</p>
<div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:39 AM, Robert Withers
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite" cite="mid:440a94ec-9f74-4390-e952-98719584e0d8@pm.me">
<meta http-equiv="content-type" content="text/html;
charset=UTF-8"/>
<p>Play a bit of these spicy beats! The music helps me to
express what is on the inside.<br/>
</p>
<p><a class="moz-txt-link-freetext" href="https://youtu.be/3q8nGnls1Ow?t=2711" moz-do-not-send="true">https://youtu.be/3q8nGnls1Ow?t=2711</a><br/>
</p>
<div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:26 AM, Robert Withers
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite" cite="mid:68481afd-2d10-e85b-29be-f2ac9546388e@pm.me">
<meta http-equiv="content-type" content="text/html;
charset=UTF-8"/>
<p><i><span id="en-KJV-19685" class="text Jer-30-17">For I
will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of
thy wounds, saith the <span style="font-variant:
small-caps" class="small-caps">Lord</span>; because
they called thee an Outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom
no man seeketh after.</span></i></p>
<p><i><span id="en-KJV-19685" class="text Jer-30-17"><b>Jeremiah
30:17</b><br/>
</span></i></p>
<div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:22 AM, Robert
Withers via Squeak-dev wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite" cite="mid:53e5af96-c60c-4361-e3df-0539863bee2e@pm.me">
<meta http-equiv="content-type" content="text/html;
charset=UTF-8"/>
<p>Thank you for reaching out in this manner on these
issues. Though be ye not concerned for my health, Ron, I
am in a good place. The sobbing really helps a LOT! And I
was brought to that tonight after screaming! And
discussing a couple of my many suicide attempts. And
realizing the effect my not finding a home with Squeak had
affected me over 20 years. It hurts! I sob. All is well;
God is Good. The Truth heals. All praise to the Most High!</p>
<p>Kindly,<br/>
Rob<br/>
</p>
<div class="moz-cite-prefix">On 10/2/20 2:16 AM, Ron
Teitelbaum wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite" cite="mid:CAEzdQ-eVFuG-ruo7WYhTh3JfKNv9MvK5zFXUAtCewgX1xuh=RA@mail.gmail.com">
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charset=UTF-8"/>
<div dir="ltr">
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Rob,</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">You
have been in this place before. Is there someone you
can talk to for help? Do you have a connection to
someone that is working with you on your issues?
Would you consider calling them now?</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I've
seen you here before. I've seen you doing much
better. You should be good to yourself and get help
now to move into calmer water and get on a more even
keel. A better future includes protecting yourself,
being nice to yourself, and making sure you get help
when you need it.</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Don't
wait until later. I really recommend you do it now.</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Ron</div>
</div>
<br/>
<div class="gmail_quote">
<div dir="ltr" class="gmail_attr">On Fri, Oct 2, 2020 at
1:50 AM Robert Withers <<a href="mailto:robert.withers@pm.me" moz-do-not-send="true">robert.withers@pm.me</a>>
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote class="gmail_quote" style="margin:0px 0px
0px 0.8ex;border-left:1px solid
rgb(204,204,204);padding-left:1ex">
<div>
<h2><small>"And would not encourage the feeding of
the indigent!"</small></h2>
<div>On 10/2/20 12:21 AM, Robert Withers wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite"> The Hellfire and its
occupants, not my problem. I pay no attention.
Burn.<br/>
<p>I "Will be in a life of bliss, In a Garden on
high. The Fruits whereof"...</p>
<hr width="100%" size="2"/>
<h1 align="center"><small>Al Haqqah (69)</small></h1>
<blockquote>
<blockquote>
<h2 align="center"><small>[The Sure Reality!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>What is the Sure
Reality?</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And what will make
thee realise what the Sure Reality is?</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>The Thamud and the
'Ad People (branded) as false the Stunning
Calamity!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>But the Thamud,-
they were destroyed by a terrible Storm of
thunder and lightning!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And the 'Ad, they
were destroyed by a furious Wind,
exceedingly violent;</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>He made it rage
against them seven nights and eight days
in succession: so that thou couldst see
the (whole) people lying prostrate in its
(path), as they had been roots of hollow
palm-trees tumbled down!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>Then seest thou any
of them left surviving?</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And Pharaoh, and
those before him, and the Cities
Overthrown, committed habitual Sin.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And disobeyed (each)
the messenger of their Lord; so He
punished them with an abundant Penalty.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>We, when the water
(of Noah's Flood) overflowed beyond its
limits, carried you (mankind), in the
floating (Ark),</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>That We might make
it a Message unto you, and that ears (that
should hear the tale and) retain its
memory should bear its (lessons) in
remembrance.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>Then, when one blast
is sounded on the Trumpet,</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And the earth is
moved, and its mountains, and they are
crushed to powder at one stroke,-</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>On that Day shall
the (Great) Event come to pass.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And the sky will be
rent asunder, for it will that Day be
flimsy,</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And the angels will
be on its sides, and eight will, that Day,
bear the Throne of thy Lord above them.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>That Day shall ye be
brought to Judgment: not an act of yours
that ye hide will be hidden.</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>Then he that will be
given his Record in his right hand will
say: "Ah here! Read ye my Record!</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>"I did really
understand that my Account would (One Day)
reach me!"</small></h2>
<h2 align="center"><small>And he will be in a
life of Bliss,</small></h2>
<div name="verse:69:22" align="center">
<div>
<div id="gmail-m_2205346858104581037trans113644">
<h2><small>In a Garden on high,</small></h2>
</div>
</div>
</div>
<div name="verse:69:23" align="center">
<div>
<div id="gmail-m_2205346858104581037trans113645">
<h2><small>The Fruits whereof (will hang
in bunches) low and near.</small></h2>
</div>
</div>
</div>
<div id="gmail-m_2205346858104581037trans113646" align="center">
<h2><small>"Eat ye and drink ye, with full
satisfaction; because of the (good) that
ye sent before you, in the days that are
gone!"</small></h2>
<h2><small>And he that will be given his
Record in his left hand, will say: "Ah!
Would that my Record had not been given
to me!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"And that I had never realised
how my account (stood)!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Ah! Would that (Death) had made
an end of me!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Of no profit to me has been my
wealth!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"My power has perished from
me!"...</small></h2>
<h2><small>(The stern command will say):
"Seize ye him, and bind ye him,</small></h2>
<h2><small>"And burn ye him in the Blazing
Fire.</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Further, make him march in a
chain, whereof the length is seventy
cubits!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"This was he that would not
believe in Allah Most High.</small></h2>
<h2><small>"And would not encourage the
feeding of the indigent!</small></h2>
<h2><small>"So no friend hath he here this
Day.</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Nor hath he any food except the
corruption from the washing of wounds,</small></h2>
<h2><small>"Which none do eat but those in
sin."</small></h2>
<h2><small>So I do call to witness what ye
see,</small></h2>
<h2><small>And what ye see not,</small></h2>
<h2><small>That this is verily the word of
an honoured messenger;</small></h2>
<h2><small>It is not the word of a poet:
little it is ye believe!</small></h2>
<h2><small>Nor is it the word of a
soothsayer: little admonition it is ye
receive.</small></h2>
<h2><small>(This is) a Message sent down
from the Lord of the Worlds.</small></h2>
<h2><small>And if the messenger were to
invent any sayings in Our name,</small></h2>
<h2><small>We should certainly seize him by
his right hand,</small></h2>
<h2><small>And We should certainly then cut
off the artery of his heart:</small></h2>
<h2><small>Nor could any of you withhold him
(from Our wrath).</small></h2>
<h2><small>But verily this is a Message for
the Allah-fearing.</small></h2>
<h2><small>And We certainly know that there
are amongst you those that reject (it).</small></h2>
<h2><small>But truly (Revelation) is a cause
of sorrow for the Unbelievers.</small></h2>
<h2><small>But verily it is Truth of assured
certainty.</small></h2>
<h2><small>So glorify the name of thy Lord
Most High.</small></h2>
<h2><small>] - Quran 69:1-52<br/>
</small></h2>
</div>
</blockquote>
</blockquote>
<p>---<br/>
</p>
<p>Slosher<br/>
Oriental, NC<br/>
</p>
<blockquote type="cite">
<blockquote type="cite">
<p> </p>
<p><img src="cid:part5.545206E5.939094D7@pm.me" alt="" class="" width="600" height="402"/></p>
<br/>
<div>On 10/1/20 11:36 PM, Ron Teitelbaum
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite">
<div dir="ltr">
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Hi Rob,</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I'm so sorry you
felt that way. I know you have had
major issues, you have said the same
yourself. I'm always happy to see you
come back even after long absences. You
are a brilliant coder and it has been my
distinct pleasure to work with you on
Cryptography! Thank you for all you
have done and indeed you are responsible
for adding significant value to Squeak
and the community. </div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">We all work on
code and it's easy to work your ass off
on something to make it work and forget
where it originated. We all contribute
in large and small ways to everything.
If you started VMMaker thank you! It is
definitely something a lot of us use. I
remember learning all about it a long
long time ago before I realized that
while I could understand it and I could
use it, the people that work on the VM
are a level higher than me. I just make
apps!</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I remember
getting in an argument with Andreas
about adding methods to collection. "WE
DON"T NEED more methods in Collection we
need to remove most of them and make it
easier!" I argued with him about the
value over and over but he insisted that
they just didn't add enough value. I
could have been put off. I could have
assumed that Andreas didn't like me but
I would have been very wrong! I was
really honored to get the chance to work
with him and we became great friends.
Of course I added my methods to the code
we were working on together and was so
thrilled when he used my methods for his
own code.</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">I don't know
what happened with VMMaker but again
thank you for your participation in it..
I wanted to take a minute to thank you
for your work and to let you know it is
my honor to work with you too! I hope
that you can come to terms with your
past and that you get the help you need
for your CPTSD. </div>
<div class="gmail_default"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">Everything is
possible, the past is gone, but the
future is still yours to shape. I wish
the past was set in stone but even that
moves and slips. I was talking to my
wife about a party we attended:
"Remember in 2000 we were at the party
and counted down the new year and
someone hit the breaker and killed the
lights! We were all talking about what
would happen in the year 2000, would
everything break!" Great story except
that I hadn't met my wife yet! The past
is only what we remember but the future
is something we have control over.
Peace, calm, happyness, they are all
hard to come by but they are possible.
I wish you success in finding what makes
your future better.</div>
<div class="gmail_default"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">I'm sorry
about the bad things that have happened
to you in the past. As far as I'm
concerned, you are welcomed here! </div>
<div class="gmail_default"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">All the best,</div>
<div class="gmail_default"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default">Ron Teitelbaum </div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small"><br/>
</div>
</div>
<br/>
<div class="gmail_quote">
<div dir="ltr" class="gmail_attr">On Thu,
Oct 1, 2020 at 10:38 PM Robert Withers
via Squeak-dev <<a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true">squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org</a>>
wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote class="gmail_quote" style="margin:0px 0px 0px
0.8ex;border-left:1px solid
rgb(204,204,204);padding-left:1ex">
<div>
<p>:sob::sob::sob:<br/>
</p>
<div>On 10/1/20 10:34 PM, Robert
Withers wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite">
<p>I wrote to the #general Squeak
Slack channel:</p>
<blockquote>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">What
a complete larcenous bastard.
20 years ago, this month,
published it as his own work.
And been against me ever
since. My CPTSD (100% veteran
service-connected) comes with
an exquisitely sensitive
deception meter. There are
those who shunned me and
ostracized me and made me feel
MOST UNWELCOME. For 20 years.
My delusions kick in and I
start suspecting back channel
communications against me. My
love for Squeak conflicted
with what I knew was
happening. but I hung in there
and worked on Cryptography,
work with a group of great
people and that I am satisfied
with its added value to
Squeak. For 20 years I KNEW
people were against me in the
community. I cannot describe
how negatively this affected
me. My third suicide attempt,
in 2007 I jumped off the roof
of a 6 story apartment
building and broke my back
along with many bones. God did
not want me to die, yet, so I
lived. This deception and
ostracism is most well
highlighted by the taking
credit for my work, without
attribution. He is a complete
tool. SHAME!</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">I
do not know the degree to
which he spoke against me. I<span> </span></span><b style="box-sizing:inherit;color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial">imagine</b><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span> </span>it
was ever since 2000.
Delusions! What is real? I
knew not. So much torment!
AGONY! They do not welcome
me! They are trying to chase
me off! Good grief, Charlie
Brown.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">Severely
exacerbated my CPTSD! I kept
trying to kill myself because
of it! I thought I had done
something egregiously wrong.
Whatever it was it had to be
my fault. I was not feeling
the love, even from myself.</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:</span></p>
<p><br/>
<span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">In
2017, 900 units of insulin
brought my blood glucose
below 40. I almost succeeded
that time.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
</span></span></p>
</blockquote>
<p>rww<br/>
</p>
<div>On 10/1/20 8:55 PM, Robert
Withers wrote:<br/>
</div>
<blockquote type="cite">
<pre>The worst sort of person is one who takes the credit for the work of
another. Wouldn't you agree?
You may wish to hear John's judgement on the matter. He was right there
when it was first built.
If you are not humble you will be humiliated, and brought low.
rww
On 10/1/20 8:35 PM, tim Rowledge wrote:
</pre>
<blockquote type="cite">
<blockquote type="cite">
<pre>On 2020-10-01, at 4:57 PM, Robert Withers via Squeak-dev <a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" target="_blank" moz-do-not-send="true"><squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org></a> wrote:
I am curious. Who was the original author of the VMMaker Tool?
</pre>
</blockquote>
<pre>That would be me; back in exobox days. Written along with the original VMMaker and intended to be an example of clean, tidy, morphic usage. I've no idea if anyone ever uses it now, since running it via scripting has proven more valuable.
tim
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