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<p><i>"</i><i>The fear of the </i><i><span style="font-variant:
small-caps" class="small-caps">Lord</span></i><i> is the
beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and
instruction."</i></p>
<p><b>Proverbs 1:7</b><i><br/>
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<p>Note. The onset of itching is a sure indicator.<br/>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">Hi
Rob,</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I'm
so sorry you felt that way. I know you have had major
issues, you have said the same yourself. I'm always
happy to see you come back even after long absences.
You are a brilliant coder and it has been my distinct
pleasure to work with you on Cryptography! Thank you
for all you have done and indeed you are responsible
for adding significant value to Squeak and the
community. </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">We
all work on code and it's easy to work your ass off on
something to make it work and forget where it
originated. We all contribute in large and small ways
to everything. If you started VMMaker thank you! It
is definitely something a lot of us use. I remember
learning all about it a long long time ago before I
realized that while I could understand it and I could
use it, the people that work on the VM are a level
higher than me. I just make apps!</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="font-size:small">I
remember getting in an argument with Andreas about
adding methods to collection. "WE DON"T NEED more
methods in Collection we need to remove most of them
and make it easier!" I argued with him about the value
over and over but he insisted that they just didn't
add enough value. I could have been put off. I could
have assumed that Andreas didn't like me but I would
have been very wrong! I was really honored to get the
chance to work with him and we became great friends.
Of course I added my methods to the code we were
working on together and was so thrilled when he used
my methods for his own code.</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">I don't know what
happened with VMMaker but again thank you for
your participation in it.. I wanted to take a minute
to thank you for your work and to let you know it is
my honor to work with you too! I hope that you can
come to terms with your past and that you get the help
you need for your CPTSD. </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">Everything is
possible, the past is gone, but the future is still
yours to shape. I wish the past was set in stone but
even that moves and slips. I was talking to my wife
about a party we attended: "Remember in 2000 we were
at the party and counted down the new year and someone
hit the breaker and killed the lights! We were all
talking about what would happen in the year 2000,
would everything break!" Great story except that I
hadn't met my wife yet! The past is only what we
remember but the future is something we have control
over. Peace, calm, happyness, they are all hard to
come by but they are possible. I wish you success in
finding what makes your future better.</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">I'm sorry about the
bad things that have happened to you in the past. As
far as I'm concerned, you are welcomed here! </div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">All the best,</div>
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<div class="gmail_default" style="">Ron Teitelbaum </div>
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Beautifully said, Ron. And Rob, I hope you find peace with
this. It’s difficult; I know. Hugs.</blockquote>
Thanks, Eliot! I had to rip my heart completely apart, laid
bare. So the scabs would heal right. I kept picking and picking
and picking. They itched like HELL!<br/>
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at 10:38 PM Robert Withers via Squeak-dev <<a href="mailto:squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org" moz-do-not-send="true">squeak-dev@lists.squeakfoundation.org</a>>
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<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">What
a complete larcenous bastard. 20 years
ago, this month, published it as his own
work. And been against me ever since. My
CPTSD (100% veteran service-connected)
comes with an exquisitely sensitive
deception meter. There are those who
shunned me and ostracized me and made me
feel MOST UNWELCOME. For 20 years. My
delusions kick in and I start suspecting
back channel communications against me. My
love for Squeak conflicted with what I
knew was happening. but I hung in there
and worked on Cryptography, work with a
group of great people and that I am
satisfied with its added value to Squeak.
For 20 years I KNEW people were against me
in the community. I cannot describe how
negatively this affected me. My third
suicide attempt, in 2007 I jumped off the
roof of a 6 story apartment building and
broke my back along with many bones. God
did not want me to die, yet, so I lived.
This deception and ostracism is most well
highlighted by the taking credit for my
work, without attribution. He is a
complete tool. SHAME!</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">I
do not know the degree to which he spoke
against me. I<span> </span></span><b style="box-sizing:inherit;color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial">imagine</b><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span> </span>it
was ever since 2000. Delusions! What is
real? I knew not. So much torment!
AGONY! They do not welcome me! They are
trying to chase me off! Good grief,
Charlie Brown.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">Severely
exacerbated my CPTSD! I kept trying to
kill myself because of it! I thought I had
done something egregiously wrong. Whatever
it was it had to be my fault. I was not
feeling the love, even from myself.</span></p>
<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:<br/>
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<p><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">:scream:</span></p>
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<span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline"><span style="color:rgb(29,28,29);font-family:Slack-Lato,appleLogo,sans-serif;font-size:15px;font-style:normal;font-variant-ligatures:common-ligatures;font-variant-caps:normal;font-weight:400;letter-spacing:normal;text-align:left;text-indent:0px;text-transform:none;white-space:normal;word-spacing:0px;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">In
2017, 900 units of insulin brought my
blood glucose below 40. I almost
succeeded that time.</span></span></p>
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another. Wouldn't you agree?
You may wish to hear John's judgement on the matter. He was right there
when it was first built.
If you are not humble you will be humiliated, and brought low.
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I am curious. Who was the original author of the VMMaker Tool?
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<pre>That would be me; back in exobox days. Written along with the original VMMaker and intended to be an example of clean, tidy, morphic usage. I've no idea if anyone ever uses it now, since running it via scripting has proven more valuable.
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