[Vm-dev] ptsd rage

Robert Withers robert.w.withers at gmail.com
Sun Dec 18 02:49:36 UTC 2016

I am sad with you in your diagnosis. I get that too, the blues. I get 
high if I am holding and listen to "Kind of Blue" or deep house or 
reggae.  Some X would be good, but herbage is my mainstay to drop my 
constant threat mode (hypervigilence). I do not want a repeat of what 
happened! Unfortunately I drive people away to make sure of that. I 
appreciate your alls kindness. I wanted to share a solid explanation of 
why I am such a dick at times. I flip to active threat mode, I struggle 
to control this. It doesn't help that the police have been stalking me 
for 2 years, I am all caught up in their noise. Don't believe a word of 
their truthfulness. The blue wall of silence breaks God's commandment 
thou shalt not bear false witness. Police violate that daily, protecting 
their brothers who shoot unarmed black men in the back and claim they 
are fearing for their lives. Really? No, really? Well, that is a 
different story. That just freaking triggers me. And my opinion makes me 
their target. At least in my C-PTSD befuddled mind.

Be well all!

On 12/17/2016 2:27 PM, Dimitris Chloupis wrote:
> What rage ? I have not noticed anything, in any case I wish you the 
> best :)
> I am also suffering from "dysthymia" which is actually the opposite of 
> what you have
> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysthymia
> still is no fun and its very difficult to explain to others but I see 
> a psychiatrist for over a year now and I have seen a lot of improvement.
> On Sat, Dec 17, 2016 at 3:57 AM Robert Withers 
> <robert.w.withers at gmail.com <mailto:robert.w.withers at gmail.com>> wrote:
>     I need to apologize for all my dread behavior. Here is the reason,
>     and I
>     am on service-connected disability. Current diagnosis is Complex PTSD.
>     Sorry about all my sturm und drang.
>     http://www.ptsd.va.gov/public/problems/anger-and-trauma.asp
>     Sincerely,
>     Robert

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