I am sad with you in your diagnosis. I get that too, the blues. I
get high if I am holding and listen to "Kind of Blue" or deep
house or reggae. Some X would be good, but herbage is my mainstay
to drop my constant threat mode (hypervigilence). I do not want a
repeat of what happened! Unfortunately I drive people away to make
sure of that. I appreciate your alls kindness. I wanted to share a
solid explanation of why I am such a dick at times. I flip to
active threat mode, I struggle to control this. It doesn't help
that the police have been stalking me for 2 years, I am all caught
up in their noise. Don't believe a word of their truthfulness. The
blue wall of silence breaks God's commandment thou shalt not bear
false witness. Police violate that daily, protecting their
brothers who shoot unarmed black men in the back and claim they
are fearing for their lives. Really? No, really? Well, that is a
different story. That just freaking triggers me. And my opinion
makes me their target. At least in my C-PTSD befuddled mind.
Be well all!
What rage ? I have not noticed anything, in any case I wish you the best :)
I am also suffering from "dysthymia" which is actually the opposite of what you have
still is no fun and its very difficult to explain to others but I see a psychiatrist for over a year now and I have seen a lot of improvement.
On Sat, Dec 17, 2016 at 3:57 AM Robert Withers <robert.w.withers@gmail.com> wrote:
I need to apologize for all my dread behavior. Here is the reason, and I
am on service-connected disability. Current diagnosis is Complex PTSD.
Sorry about all my sturm und drang.
http://www.ptsd.va.gov/public/problems/anger-and-trauma.asp
Sincerely,
Robert