[Vm-dev] ptsd rage

Charlie Robbats charlie.robbats at gmail.com
Sun Dec 18 03:11:47 UTC 2016


Last bit, a mantra: Crime & Punishment creates massive mental illness in 
our society. Ask the Russians.


On 12/17/2016 10:05 PM, Robert Withers wrote:
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> Well, my paranoia is kicking. I spoke too broadly of police, I have 
> interacted with many and they do a lot of good. A bad apple spoils the 
> whatever and their code of silence allows for that sort of rot. I tell 
> it straight, because they monitor the list. I pissed them off! Do you 
> think it passed the sanity test that cops run all street drugs with 
> their felon database in hand? Damn! All those Fellas are going to turn 
> and bite their masters' hand, you watch! Stacking these grown men like 
> Twinkies in overcrowded prisons. There is a debt that needs to be paid 
> and the righteous are those in prison on a bunch of bullshit paper. 
> Vive la revolucion! Ok, sorry I went political. I am done.
>
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> On 12/17/2016 9:49 PM, Robert Withers wrote:
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>> I am sad with you in your diagnosis. I get that too, the blues. I get 
>> high if I am holding and listen to "Kind of Blue" or deep house or 
>> reggae.  Some X would be good, but herbage is my mainstay to drop my 
>> constant threat mode (hypervigilence). I do not want a repeat of what 
>> happened! Unfortunately I drive people away to make sure of that. I 
>> appreciate your alls kindness. I wanted to share a solid explanation 
>> of why I am such a dick at times. I flip to active threat mode, I 
>> struggle to control this. It doesn't help that the police have been 
>> stalking me for 2 years, I am all caught up in their noise. Don't 
>> believe a word of their truthfulness. The blue wall of silence breaks 
>> God's commandment thou shalt not bear false witness. Police violate 
>> that daily, protecting their brothers who shoot unarmed black men in 
>> the back and claim they are fearing for their lives. Really? No, 
>> really? Well, that is a different story. That just freaking triggers 
>> me. And my opinion makes me their target. At least in my C-PTSD 
>> befuddled mind.
>>
>> Be well all!
>>
>> On 12/17/2016 2:27 PM, Dimitris Chloupis wrote:
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>>> What rage ? I have not noticed anything, in any case I wish you the 
>>> best :)
>>>
>>> I am also suffering from "dysthymia" which is actually the opposite 
>>> of what you have
>>>
>>> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysthymia
>>>
>>> still is no fun and its very difficult to explain to others but I 
>>> see a psychiatrist for over a year now and I have seen a lot of 
>>> improvement.
>>>
>>> On Sat, Dec 17, 2016 at 3:57 AM Robert Withers 
>>> <robert.w.withers at gmail.com <mailto:robert.w.withers at gmail.com>> wrote:
>>>
>>>
>>>     I need to apologize for all my dread behavior. Here is the
>>>     reason, and I
>>>     am on service-connected disability. Current diagnosis is Complex
>>>     PTSD.
>>>     Sorry about all my sturm und drang.
>>>
>>>     http://www.ptsd.va.gov/public/problems/anger-and-trauma.asp
>>>
>>>
>>>     Sincerely,
>>>
>>>     Robert
>>>
>>
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